Calm down?

I have a complete paranoia about these going very, very wrong in my life. It's a very weird thing, especially because the reason I'm so paranoid is that my life has been so good. I've been so blessed, I got to go to college, to travel, to get married. I have a wonderful family, amazing friends and a great job with people I get along with really well. And all of that is apart from all the superficial stuff, like my AWESOME house, car with air-condition etc. It's true that I have somewhat of a selective memory when it comes to the bad times (i.e. I blocked out all the days in Chile when I woke up freezing cause there was no heat in our pension/ the day Arnold got hit by a car) but for the most part my life has been really great. Seriously, I am like the only person I know that didn't think that high school was a horrible traumatic time... I actually thought the whole thing was a BLAST!... so in the back of my head I'm always thinking "It can't go on like this. How could one person be so lucky?" I noticed in Sex in the City Movie Charlotte was considering the same question. "Who I am to be so lucky and get everything I want?" Is there anybody else who feels like that? Or is my paranoia an individual affliction?

Posted on September 11, 2008 and filed under Nothing to Do with Anything.